In The
Confession I introduced Ania and her girlfriend Dominika, as
well as their two closest friends, Emilia and Kasia (pro Kasha if you are not
sure); the latter of which only has a peripheral role in the first book.
However, for now, I just want to write a little more
particularly about Ania and why I think her story needs to be told, while at
the same time not giving away any spoilers, although this may not be 100%
possible.
I am not too worried about this as the chances are, that
you have come across this page after reading The Confession.
Ania is deeply flawed as a human being and at a certain
point when she felt abandoned by Dominika (there was some justification to how
she was feelings here, but what she went on to do was wrong anyway) she set
into process a chain of events that became increasingly more deviant and
threatened not only her sanity, but her very life. She hit rock bottom a couple
of times and reached a point both times where she no longer cared whether she
lived or died.
You already know this even if you have only read the
back blurb (yes that is what the Publishers call it) of The Confession.
So I am not writing now to reiterate a point already
well made.
Rather I want to concentrate on the person of Ania.
Ania never set out to hurt Dominika and her
self-loathing for doing so is clearly evident throughout The Confession.
As with each and every one of us, Ania is a product of
her experiences and domestic environment and thus far you (my readers) have
only seen hints of what this means. In subsequent books these ideas will be
discussed more deeply, until we come to an understanding of why she is like she
is. She is damaged and despite it being through no fault of her own, she
constantly blames herself.
Ania’s story was originally intended to be a trilogy,
introduced in The Confession and to be followed up by The Hard Road Back and
then brought to a conclusion in The
Journey Home. I am pleased to announce even at this relatively
early stage that The
Hard Road Back has already been accepted by the Publishers and
is undergoing proofing and editorial controls before going to the printers and
being released; hopefully sometime in 2023 (although don’t hold me to this date
as it is out of my hands). The Journey Home is about 90% complete and yet to be
submitted.
So, The
Confession is only the beginning and the rest of the trilogy,
as hinted at through the titles is an odyssey, a journey that Ania must take to
come to terms with her past and deal with her present so that she can have a
future. Her journey will mean a lot of pain but, as with any wound or injury
this is part of the healing process and a necessary endurance.
I also belatedly realised that the Ania books need to be
expanded as Ania must face one last test so that she can truly embrace her
healing. This will spawn at least one more book and maybe a second trilogy (I
am not going to do what Peter Jackson did to The Hobbit, but it really will
depend on how many words it takes to tell this vital part of Ania’s story). I
am also seriously considering another book in which I will share the
backgrounds of each of the four main characters (and maybe Elwira too). They
all arrived in Dominika’s flat, fully formed with their own stories to tell and
you might well enjoy meeting them properly.
Very often we hear the media describe certain people
(and more often than not girls) as vulnerable and
Ania fits this definition perfectly. My hope is that as you the reader identify
with her you maybe if you have endured similar things to Ania then it will
provide you will a roadmap for your own healing . Alternatively, if this
does not relate to your personal experience then it will give you greater
insight as to why people behave in the way they do and may even offer some
suggestions as to how you can support such people who you might well know.
Vulnerable people are often their own worst enemies and
Ania is no exception, which is why they are so easily exploited – hence the
definition vulnerable.
So, in conclusion for this post you can see that I have
a very clear moral and psychological aim in my writing and while it is no
handbook (nor would I ever claim it to be) it is at the very least a framework
for you to embrace as you need to.
With this in mind, my decision to define the content as
erotica might be somewhat surprising, but it was a deliberate and conscious
choice that will be discussed in my next post.
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